So, continuing along with this topic yet again, there are still a few things I’d like to share
This may seem like the relatively more negative parts, but I’d rather not think of it like that. All of these experiences contributed to the sexual person that I am, and I don’t think I would do them differently even if I had the opportunity
(Generally) whenever I’ve tied myself up in the last several years, I’ve used a system I first came up with way back then that I’ve described in previous entries about self-bondage. Basically, I use multiple coils of ropes (though I mostly used shoelaces until I was about 16) around my wrists that are juuuust tight enough that I can’t wiggle out of them in a matter of seconds, and layer them one upon the other with my wrists crossed. It works pretty well, and I’m always able to work myself free after only about 5-10 minutes of struggling with the various coils binding me (much sooner than that, and what would be the point?
). But one time, when I was about 16 or 17, still fairly new at it and still “working out all the bugs,” I had a pretty big scare when I almost got stuck :/ I made the mistake – well, I made a couple mistakes, actually, but this was the first – of tightening 2 of my newly-bought rope coils a bit more than I normally kept them before setting myself up. After getting naked, roping up my legs and chest, and gagging myself tightly with multiple strips of duct tape, I made a second (or 3rd, if you count not keeping a knife/safety scissors handy) big mistake: I got a little too bold, and wanted to try a stricter, “more realistic” hogtie. This entailed “seating” the hogtie loop more securely as a cinch over my crossed wrists in their coils, and then more securely layering additional wrist coils over it.
It was a pretty awesome self-bondage play session while it lasted, what with being that much more (realistically) helpless and all, but I started to get scared when I honestly couldn’t get myself free. I squirmed and struggled and thrashed, and pretty much did everything you’re not supposed to do – I basically panicked. I was home alone at the time (as I always had to be sure I was when playing during the daytime on school breaks or whatnot), but I screamed into my gag for help as best I could (which was not very good), not caring who found me like this, or that I was. I started to cry and sob as I wriggled disconsolately against the ropes holding my wrists fast. Not yet quite resigned to my fate, though, I made one last push to put every ounce of effort I could into squeezing my wrists out of my miserable knots. Thank heavens I wasn’t very good at bondage back then, or I certainly would have been trapped, and most likely discovered naked, bound, and gagged by my mom when she got home
I did manage to wriggle my hands loose (somewhat painfully) after intense struggling and squirming for close to 30 minutes, and managing to untie one knot in the process. Needless to say, I learned after that not to ever try such a risky hogtie again alone!
Speaking of which, though, on one fateful day, my mom did happen to catch me in the act of self-bondage *blushes massively* I was 15 or 16 – I don’t remember which, but I was still using shoelaces to bind myself – and was home for some school holiday or another. I hadn’t stripped down completely naked this time: I was in my bra and panties, and tied and tape-gagged myself on top of my bed with my door closed. I had figured my mom would be gone for the better part of the day, as she usually was when she went out running errands and shopping. Sometimes she’d come back for a few minutes, say to drop off a carton of milk rather than carry it around in the car, but she wasn’t due for a grocery run, so I figured I was safe.
After about 20 minutes of enjoying my bondage, my reverie was snapped with a noise. I couldn’t tell what it was, but figured it must just have been an animal or the mailman or something, so went back to my carefree struggling. Suddenly, I heard my mom’s voice calling my name! Oh no! I squirmed and struggled as best I could to get free before she decided to check in my room, but no such luck! I couldn’t untie myself in time, and she burst into my room to find her scantily-clad teenage daughter bound and gagged on her bed *blushes* Obviously, she was shocked (so was I!), and immediately pulled my gag off and wanted to know what happened. I didn’t think I could lie about it being a burglar (nothing would have been missing), so I shamefully confessed that I had done it to myself because I was intrigued by the damsels-in-distress on movies and TV and wanted to see what it was like (obviously omitting the part about finding it intensely sexually arousing…). In retrospect, knowing what I know now about bondage, I’m sure she could read between the lines, but seemed to take my story at face value at the time. She warned me not to do it again, and I lied that I wouldn’t *blushes* Oh, if only she knew…..
So I guess that just about wraps up this feature! I may have more on it later, but that’s all I can think of for now
Soooo…. see you later for another topic!
*gag kisses*